I can't sleep (what's new). I've been thinking about a lot of things (what's new). Things that have transpired the past weeks, things that have kept me in constant bliss and paranoia, things that have put "things" in a clearer perspective and things that round up the things I've been thinking about. (Puro "things" ano? Hehehe) I finally submitted my application form for the Ateneo Law School. I really hope I get admitted, I am practically thirsty for the knowledge they can impart. After that, went home slept from 3:00 to 6:30 pm then met up with Lisa, Trey and Jem at UCC fort. I really miss my friends. I miss bumping into them at school and our conversations during our "yosi breaks" and early morning kwentuhans (diba Erix and Lisa?). I remember watching an epsiode of "Hey Arnold" and towards the end Helga (the artistic unibrowed, hopeless romantic) says something that really stuck to me. Something that in its sheer simplicity elicits complexity and profoundness and wisdom. She said, "Arnold likes me, he really likes me...even as a friend...and that means I'm half way there". I recently talked to an old gradeschool friend of mine who really really really likes this girl (disclaimer: for security purposes, my friend shall be unnamed and he just really really really likes this girl, not love), and doesn't have a clue if the girl likes him back. He comes to me looking for advice, looking for some sort of comfort, looking for an answer. An answer that is definitely beyond me. But maybe the question: does she like me?, isn't that important. Perhaps what matters is "does she like me as a friend?" because everything starts from something. People don't go and fall in love or in my friend's case; really really really like someone he or she just met. That would be completely suicidal and just plain stupid. Some of us are probably half - way across the journey, some of us are probably nearer the finish line than they'd like to think. Some of us have a long way to go...but who cares? At least you made that first step and the beautiful thing about that "first step" is that no matter what happens you have something that keeps us bound to that person.

I don't know if I'm actually making sense. Parang hindi hehehe, maybe its the fatigue talking (I was in school at 7 am for reg, went straight to Rockwell, had coffee at the fort and played basketball: one of these days my body is gonna shut down for a much needed rest). And they say smoking kills you, hahaha. If my friend is reading this...wow you can read, hahaha loko lang! Never say never my friend.