Why? Why is it that everytime I feel great, God always seems to throw something at my face just to spite me, just to piss me off. I've been feeling great these past few days, which like I said in my previous entries, was a much needed one. Today was pretty good too, I mean nothing to complain about anyway. Then it happens, God brings out his planner and says, "Hey! Mike's been quite happy as of late why don't I piss him off! Just for the fun of it!" And you know how much God takes pride in his sense for the dramatic and his impecable timing. I just woke up from a well deserved nap, and it hit me. Just when I was about to get off bed and face the world with fresh new eyes and a happy song in my heart. He does this to me. I don't know if there's some other guy out there getting this kind of treatment. I don't know if this is His way of getting off the boredom He gets from sitting on His throne and just watching us all fucking day. If this is His idea of fun, damn, I am in a truck load of shit. I just don't understand it. I don't know why everytime I try and make sense of my life, try picking up the pieces something like this happens. Maybe I'm just overthinking again, or maybe I wasn't after all. Maybe all this time I was doing the right kind of thinking when the rest of the world just thought of things haphazardly and rushed off into the world. *Sigh* I am getting really tired of this. I really am. I don't know where to put myself now. Could someone please tell me where am I supposed to go or what am I supposed to do? Cuz right now, I am really lost, I don't know what to think, what to do, what to feel, where to go.